Sorry for the late updates!!!
I'm sure everyone should know that i was feeling under pressured for the past 3 weeks due to my flying course and was facing some problems in every flight that i went to. Things didn't get any better for me, but i would still like to thank everyone that gave me support which really gave me hope to carry on pushing myself to believe in flying again!
I will also like to thank everyone that had faith in me, and hoping that one day i will be able to bring them up in the sky. But maybe my time hasn't come, so i am quite sad to say that everyone will have to wait a while longer before i can bring them up in the sky!! After my flight a few days ago, though it went quite smoothly compared to all the other flights i went for this whole month, both my instructor and I had a discussion whether we should continue or stop here!
He said that he feels very wasted to just lose a student like me that this stage, as he still feels that i had the potential to make it through, but however from the last few flight he flown with me, and with the comments from the other instructor that took me the other time, he feels that i should concentrate on my studies as he is afraid that i wont be able to cope! This thought has already been in me since 3 weeks ago, so i kinda agreed with what he said~!
Unable to carry on typing le.. feeling very down writing this!
Today my grandmother went for her eye operation, and it was a successful one!! Now currently recovering at my aunty's house but seems like my uncle took a knock at work yesterday! Although he thought maybe he could take the pain and go on with it. But it seems the knock was not a light one that seems to be able to recover naturally, so my uncle went to the hospital to get it treated!
As my aunty had to accompany my uncle to the hospital, my grandmother is also not in the condition to be moving around too much, so either me or my sister had to go over and just ensure nothing happen, although believe my grandmother is pro enough to ensure she is fine! But just for safety precaution bah! As my sister had to accompany her bf's family, so i was left to look after my grandmother! However, as i left quite late, late till even my sister arrived first, i felt guilty not leave earlier. Haiz, its over le so hope i won't like that the next time baH!!!
Anyway.. to end it, tomorrow i'm going to fly my 9th sortie again with my primary instructor! Hopefully tomorrow will go on smooth and good cause its going to be testing on whether i will be able to carry on the 2nd phrase or be phrased out! Cause either way, the next few batches behind me are already catching up le....
SOMEBODY SAVVVVEEEE MMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Today will be a short one i believe!
Couldn't wake up to attend morning mass lecture today, i finally decide to kick myself out of the bed around 11+ to prepare for school! Today WCD was quite the usual i guess, just see the practical, understand the codes and start to copy paste to see the effect of the codes on dreamweaver!
After that, i ended lessons for the day and had a 4 hour dicussion about the SPUNK magazine that will be published and given around the whole of SP ont he 12 of July! Do keep a lookout!
After that long discussion, i went to club and slack all the way till 10 with Gavin, Ericson & Yong Hui where we played Dota & Moo Moo all the way again! LOL~!
Alright back to the main topic of the day: PRAYER!
Tomorrow my grandmother is going for an eye operation, which will make her partially blind to recover after the op so here is a WELL WISHES from her grandson here and pray that everything will go smoothly tomorrow!!!
Everyone that reads this is to do a prayer from any kind of religion to pray for my grandmother's eye operation tomorrow!!!
Today went to 11pm mass as my father went to climb mountains with his old buddies, den after that we went over to Taka at Orchard to have our lunch at Yoshinoya. After finish eating, we went over to the OSIM fest at the heart of Taka, where my mother finally decide to buy her massage chair. This means that my house is going to have one massage chair that i will finally be able to sleep on it^^... Past experience was at my buddy's house where i slept there till his parents came home!!
Also, as OSIM was having some sales on ALL their products, they had this grab the money in the box. And as my mother bought the massage chair, we were given 15s to try to grab as much as I can. Although my mother bought yesterday already, both of my parents didn't want to go and take, so left today ask me go take for them! I sat on the iGallop for about 20 minutes in front of the moneybox thinking of how to make it one successful run!
And when it was my turn, once the thing started. I had like both hands filled with prizes and it was only like 3s gone only, but they were quite unhappy with it den ask me to restart! Disapppointed with it, cause i think i collected like ALOT of prizes compared to the 2nd run. It was like only 1/3 of what i collected in the first run 3s! But i believe God made it this way, so i just get over it and collected the prizes i got.
Not much, but i think i'm the only one that walked off with 2 full paper bags of prizes! Its nothing to be proud of since winning the prize money is much better than all the other prizes!~
After that, i went to have my hair cut and went off to meet up with the MCs to head to IKEA to check out stuffs for the club this year!
I was tagged by Samantha!
Tagged! This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog...
6 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME
1) I can only sleep with my face down on the pillow unless I'm really very very tired!
2) I don't really like to start a topic or chat, unless i'm really very bored! Maybe something for me to work on to allow people to talk to me more often^_^
3) I won't get angry no matter what? But there is always a maximum limit to everybody's patience!
4) I'm a Catholic, and I go to church every Sunday with my Family! *unless there is an event or other commitments to attend!
5) I don't like to spend so much time to style or even comb my hair everywhere I go! I just can't be bothered about my hair. maybe I give trying to get a stylish hairdo!
6) The last one is I'm feeling weird doing this? but seems fun to do it^_^
The next 6 lucky ppl
- Ericson
- Ryan
- Darren Quek
- Yap
- SQ
- Willis
Currently in club now! Today came down to school to open the clubroom for Joanne to collect her jacket and also to pass some stuff to Sean.
It has been about a week since i last flew and think about it already. My mind seems to already given up as I totally lost the motivation to push on already! Much as I want to escape from it, it seems that I can't escape from it forever, as my worst fear has already come true with a flight early morning tomorrow! I will most likely fly with my primary instructor and should be the flight to decide if i should go on or just stop here! No matter how i have already given up, I still feel a tingling feeling of giving it one last go at it and perform it tomorrow morning! Tomorrow will be my 9th sortie, recovering from a stalled aircraft, and I am expected to show the recovery process which I haven't been practising this few days! Now, I will have one last day to practise and be ready for tomorrow's flight.
Now is also e-learning week where everyone is suppose to be staying at home, staring at the com at BB to check for work to be done. But, seems like i still have to come down club everyday to prepare for the coming events that will be held during the 2 weeks holiday! A changed life, still adapting! Unknown of the real reason, but it getting quite difficult to blend in back to my life, and things are not going as well as it seems i guess! Well, i just have to walk one step at a time!
Ciaos!
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Yesterday we had a night cycling from East Coast Park to Newton Circus, detouring to Marina Square and back to ECP. Gathering time there was 8pm, where we will get our bikes and head towards the food center to have our dinner!
We set off at about 10pm from MacDonald's, but the rain came down to us in less than 5 minutes after we started. With the rain coming down so heavily, we have no choice but to seek shelter at the nearest hut nearby. Everyone was resting and chatting over there, when we were all joking that maybe God wanted us to start on time since the actual starting time was 11pm. The rain cooled down, and we started moving before the rain hit us again. It was only when the actual time to start, than the rain was easing off and we started our trip from there on.
We split into three different groups when we reached the end of ECP, Hawa led the first group, with me being the last of the first group. The rest followed on and catch up with us as much as they can. We arrived at the first few checkpoints without much problems, before we started to have some problems with the bike.
After that, we head towards Newton Circus to have our supper and went over to Marina Square there to look at the night secenary before the 4 of us just slept at the stairs there while the rest was busy chatting at the river side~
It was about 5am when we started to head back to ECP, and we arrived there about 6+ before we all just went crazy once we reached ECP to race ourselves back to the bicycle shop. Since it was still early and the shop haven't open yet, we went to MacDonald's to have a quick bite, as I and Gavin was outside sleeping at the mini-table there. After we returned the bikes about 8.30, I took a cab home with Yap, and slept for 8 hours straight!
After 7 months since I created this blog, i finally reach one hundred post!
Much that I may want to be happy over this post, however today writing this with a pretty much unhappy feeling! Today ended lesson about 12, den as i had to fly on the last wave today i left for the flying center about 2.30.
When i reach there, i gave myself some last practise for the flight and doing some preparation work before going for the briefing! And just when i think things are going quite well for this flight today, things started to go wrong once the plane took off. I guess its my fault not to practise more on the departure side so i sort of made him very angry by not doing a specific takeoff for him to see~
He was howling words at me during flight and showing me how unhappy he was, and was too obsessed in scolding me that, he forget that we have to head over to Area B instead of staying at A. Scolding me why I'm not telling them i'm staying at A... haiz... The weather wasn't good either to do the exercise today so in the end he took me for a curcuits run, taking a total of 5 landings before ending the flight~ When we got down, he was very angry and started to test me on my flight. No matter what he said, i can feel that the other incident that time has cause a problem between the two of us which is not good at all. The more i fly now, i lost my calmness in doing the things so things aren't going very well with me as for now!
He ended by saying that the next sortie will be fully based on my performances and will also decide whether i confirm going to Phrase Two or will be Phrase OUT! I dont want to stress myself out, but i will give my best shot the next flight i will fly with him and show him what confidence level i can attain that i have yet to achieve flying with him. The mentality in my mind is telling me to give up, due to some reasons but i dont think i should be giving up so easily! maybe i am just the person that needs to stay in camp everyone to do nothing but study and practise flying cause maybe i am just not prepared enough to fully commit into this. Sad to say but i feel more bonded with my poly and competition rather than this.......
Long time since i was able to post something so long out, so hopefully any kind soul that ever reads this and comment on how i should be doing man... i feel so demoralised!! -.-"
Today was Barnet's 21st birthday, so all of us came out with some celebration for him after school. After so many discussion yesterday night, we finally decided to get him the Razer Copperhead Mouse, birthday card with a mini-cake and a boxer to 'sabotage' him.
Here's a formal Happy 21st Birthday BARNET!
After that, we went for soccer training! Today's training suddenly had alot of new faces coming to join the team and all of them at least have certain standard, which i believe will also raise the competition in becoming the first team. Overall, playing together every Monday can be quite fun, and with the Inter cons still a long way more to go, we are still getting used to each other!
After that, we went over to Clementi to have our dinner settled over there before heading home to wash my dirty seasoning boots!
Feeling very tired upon writing this, but yeah... Been doing quite a few stuff and resting to the minimum so feeling quite lethargic easily i guess! So i might be heading for my lovely comfortable bed early for the first time since school actually started!
13th of May - today is Mother's Day, so wishing all the Mothers in the world a HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!!
In the morning, my whole family went to church as usual, where my sister and I went to buy some flowers for our family before heading over to my cousin's house to see my newborn nephew. However when we were there, he was fast asleep most of the time and as i slept quite late the night before. I went over to the bed and take a nap there till my sister had to go off.
At night, we took train to Clarke Quey to eat at the Indonesian Riverside Restaurant to celebrate Mother's Day and after all went home to watch Manchester lost to West Ham 1-0 at home to ensure that they stay up at the Premiership! Although Sir Alex fielded at stronger side compared to mid-week, most of the time, Manchester couldn't get going and i believe it was sort of allowing the other side to come directly to them and score against them~! Well, I can't wait to see the FA Cup Final between Chelsea and Manchester United!
Other than that, most of my afternoon was spent sleeping so didn't do anything much today~
Haven't been writing any entries these few days due to busy assignments and soccer training in school! And, as what the topic says, its about the incoming MIT Club Main Committee for this year 2007! And there was some changes compared to other years as we welcome back Diploma in Business IT (DBIT) to SMIT!
Insider Information Posted Here LIVE!!!
Seats Allocated for the new MC:
Special Treats for those who read my blog=D!
President - Teck Chau
V.President - Adelin
Treasurer - Gavin
Secetary - Farhana
QuarterMaster - Barnet
Logistic Co-ordinator - Ferguson
Human Resource Co-ordinator - Ikhwan
Asst. HR Co-ordinator - Wei Shan
Public Relation Co-ordinator - Bastian
Publication Co-ordinator - Ericson
Asst. Publication Co-ordinator - Jonathon
Sports Head - Yong Hui
System Adminstrator - SQ
Student Advisor - Shawn Ko
Internal Auditor- Nut
LONG LIVE MC's, and the actual results will be posted by tomorrow after 5pm! Anyone that is interested can always try to post at my tag board.. !!! Guess Correctly, and you might just win yourself something!!
*Updated the whole list today.. lazy to blog in a new entry=D
Today i would like to tell everyone about timeline~ There is an underlying meaning to this, so you smart if you are about to make out what i'm trying to say here!
This time works like a watch, running effortlessly at 24hrs a day, 7 days a week. However, everything stopped after 19 months, 28 days. I even used some time to work things out like, 603 Days, 14,472 hours, 868,320 minutes and not to forget 52,099,200 seconds!!
Somehow time cannot be repaired so i supposed everything is lost during that time, and what is left is memories!! So, a new timeline is running currently and its about getting used to this new timeline!!!
Today is Labour Day, so everyone is enjoying their one day holiday. However, this free time i have made me wonder and reflect back on my life so far.
Ever since I turned 18 last year, my life didn't change much. But, somehow I feel that I'm underachiving in everything I am doing so far. Maybe this is the stage where everyone have to face one phrase of their life, where they are starting to do many other things, and trying to achieve to be the best in everything that they do. Don't know the reason behind it, but somehow as the days go by, i'm feeling demoralised day by day. Things are just not going very smoothly in my life now, no matter how people see it!
Since today was a holiday, so i decided to take a driving lesson. From the test date, i still have about 2 months more to prepare so there isn't any rush. As I took a long break from driving, maybe i didn't have the feeling of the car again, but i settled down quite quickly. However, things didn't go as smoothly as usual. Seems like no matter what turn or gear i took today, it seems to be able to allow the tester to give me a demerit point, and if today's was the real test, i will probably chock up 40 points or more judging how my instructor was constantly telling me about the 6 and 8 pointers.
Tomorrow, I'm going to have my 7th Flight, and as the previous one wasn't a smooth one for me either, I just don't have the feel for it at the moment. But i can't just let my feelings hold me down since tomorrow is my flight already and if i screw it up, i will probably be the next one to get axed! Troubled feeling surrounding me the whole day today, and things are just not going too well for me!!
Maybe I taken up too many projects to handle at one time? Maybe I should have think twice about things? Maybe I should drop off some of my project handling currently? I feel responsible for it now, so I will go through it! Hopefully I can garner some strength somewhere~!
Down and Out~!
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