Break.

And so another 48 hours passed. . . Pretty much recovered myself except some random headaches and irritating cough. That's what you get after cooping myself at the bed, without leaving it unless going for meal, eat medicine or natures' call!! There really isn't much things you can do while you're sick as well, so it's just my laptop at my side accompanying me with msn, streaming animes, reading news online, blogging like this or just playing music till i sleep. If you do realize that exercising hasn't been part of my 3 days staying at home, so in this evening later today i should be trying to go for some short runs near my house to start up my still recovering body!! If not when i get back camp after this week, I'm going to die from all the trainings with all the catch up trainings i need to do as well!!

Also, will like to thank everyone for their well-wishes for my recovery. Though most of the time everyone is asking me how to get the 7 days MC cause they want it as well!! I wonder, is that 7 days MC that useful at all? If you're just not feeling well, you won't get 7 days break in the first place eh? and so if you're not feeling well already, it's quite a torture you know? not including the ten tablets I have to put inside myself after every meal! Maybe when it's ever your turn, den you will know how it feels!! =)

If I've been at home for the past 3 days, means I'm out of camp for the same duration as well. Wonder how the range went?! did everyone get their marksmanship already, or waiting for me to join them?! xD Either way, hopefully everyone is well and getting ready to come out today since tomorrow have some meet the parent session either in the morning or afternoon! Mine will be during the afternoon, but not sure if I should be going down or not since I'm still on MC though I'm much better le!!

Since I'm already at my 7 days of break, i hope it's will be a worthwhile break!! One that i can fully utilize, recharge myself before going back for the final phrase of training already where it will only going to get tougher, but it's all part and parcel of the deal!! Just 2 months of trainings, it's never going to be easy to go through it, i understand!! My mind is full of thoughts, that the day is coming where i will put on my thinking cap to ensure it will be unforgettable even though i'm not 100% health yet!!♥

Recovery.

I'm back home just one day after reporting back to camp! Though i wasn't 100% ready to report back to camp initially, and knowing the importance of the upcoming live firing range, i supposed having a good rest back in camp will be better! Woke up early to get ready, still wasn't feeling that good, worse is the temperature was still hanging around 37.2°C. I told myself to push myself to the limit throughout the range until I know I'm not in the condition to carry on the shoot, since it's live firing so better not take any chances risking anything!!

Managed to carry on for all the day shoot, until after dinner, when i took my temperature it rises until 38.6°C that left my Supervising Officer no choice but to send me straight to the Medical Center for treatment. Though i know that I'm still able to pull through for the night shoot, but if the temperature keep going up, i don't think anyone will be willing to take any responsibility especially with H1N1 cases on the rise as well! On the way to the Medical Center, I was already mentally prepared to get the 7 Day Attend C status from the doctor, which will mean that I'll be missing out the whole week of activities. But I already gave myself a whole day to try and recover already, since it's not going to recover in time, I also have no choice have to accept doctor's 7 days MC and loads of medication.

With my departure, our room which started out with 8 men. Now left with 3, who will be the sole survivor! Who is going to Outwit, Outlast, Outplay!! LOLx, of course that was just a joke about the survivor thingy! Hopefully the last 3 guys in our room will stay healthy and complete the week without any problem! The rest of us will be back in action as soon as we are able to! Rock on' Det Two!

And so, Recovery Day 1.

Being sick means confined to the bed and room, resting as much as possible. But definitely getting better already, with at least 10 tablets to be placed inside my body after every meal, if things doesn't get any better it would only mean more tablets to be placed inside!! But not to worry la, trust the medical doctor inside camp as they are all certified doctors from hospital that are serving their two years of NS, with at least many years of experience in the field of expertise! To everyone who is affected, get well soon and back to normal life!!

Perhaps as you get older isn't that great after all. I still remember back in my Secondary school day where our daily routine was just reaching school by 7.25am and waiting for it to end at around 1pm. Listening in class, preparing for tests and exams was all that is within my worries. Once at home, I'm free to do whatever i like, go wherever i want. Back then with so little worries, I was hoping that I get older soon so as to do things adults are able to do when i can't. Recalling all the times when my buddies and I sneak in to the cinema watching all the NC-16, M-18 and even R-21 shows all the years. Now, any upcoming movies with whatever ratings won't bother me, having drinking session with friends, driving on the road and many more cause I'm no longer bothered by the age limit. I'm not complaining about all the responsibility because I was already ready for this day to appear since my younger days already, but just that i realized that by then, I'm fearless pretty much about anything in life be it wealth, health, relationship, etc. Nowadays, maybe with the fact that I'm inside camp most of the time for training, I don't feel so secured as much! To be honest, I feel the fear creeping in over any little things even if they can't be controlled by me, now i know why people will rather remain during their younger days as that is when you are really carefree without much worries in life! If it's not going to be easy for me when I'm inside camp having training, I know that it's also not going to be easy for you as well. . . I'll always have you in my mind!


Ahh, something to share with everyone. . . Parody of Wonder Girls "Nobody"


Enjoy!

Three.

Ahhh, been about two weeks long since I'm able to sit in front of the computer with enough time to type out one entry. Gotta say that the past two weeks has been a quick short break, before heading back to camp. Like this week, have to report tomorrow at 2130hrs.

Already going to the 3rd week of training, so the pace of trainings are going faster and faster each day, and of course not only the pace as even the requirements for every trainings also started to increase already! Shall not say it's that tough like what many people thinks, still quite manageable in some sense though it's going to go beyond what i can manage soon i think. With just about 6 effective weeks left, everything is a rush, but still part and parcel of the lowest point my military life. While before you start thinking life in there is bad, i would add on by saying life in there is not that bad already, compared to previous years! Of course I'm still quite away from the outside world often, with the only form of communication being my mobile phone, the time to even use it nowadays is pretty short, as they also start to stack up many task to complete before the start of the new day!

Hmmm, while there is H1N1 virus spreading around Singapore though things are being monitored and the situation is contained pretty well as well, there's is some kind of fever virus spreading among us inside camp, my platoon itself already have 12 cases of fever case cause as the measure to prevent to H1N1 virus, for as long as you have a fever case of 37.0 and above, you will be subjected to a 7 days MC rest at home! While many will feel it will be a good opportunity to try and get this extra 7 days rest at home, getting it now with such a rush pace will only make you miss out so many trainings which might affect the overall performance in BMT that will require you to re-take it if the situation goes from bad to worse. So everyone, whether in camp or outside, do take good care of yourself, keeping your immune system high at all times so as not to fall sick!! =)

Haven't been able to have much photos time, so everyone got to bear with wordy post for now. Pictures will start to be posted up if there is any major events coming up, and also our National Day is just right around the corner! So wishing our nation an advance Happy 44th Birthday, always improving and ever growing!!

"When you know what you want, and you want it badly enough, you'll find a way to get it!"

No matter how tough the trainings get, once i come back to my bunk and open up my cupboard, just the view at it will make all the suffering worth while and spur me to work my best during my time in camp, so i can almost fully enjoy myself during the short little breaks from training week in, week out. Was released earlier yesterday as the new guys finally ended their 2 weeks confinement stint, so the only thing that came out of my mind was to come back as a surprise, so came home quickly and went out shortly after that. Adrian called me, and went over to catch up with him since he was around there as well, thought he was still having his Ops. After all, it was great to see him again after a while since i went in already, so managed to share our experiences!

I used to have this thinking that if I'm around, it doesn't matter if as even if i only had a second to take a look, it's enough! For the next two months at least, my weekly routine should be 6 days of training with just 1 day of break outside, so time is short. . . and as time passes i miss baby more and more, so much to say here, but can't find a suitable way of putting it across now! Shall just treasure every second i have, and everything else will be a bonus given to me=)

Currently coughing quite badly, but i should be alright in a while.. ... shall end off here!! Time to rev the engine and get it started already!!!

Fourth.

Time flies, yes! time flies when you're having fun. The long weekend granted by OC due to good performance for the IPPT test was something that isn't the tradition of the way in Commandos, but this change is definitely something much welcomed by the trainees as we will savor any breaks from the trainings at any point of time. After all, such treats aren't given much in the first place once the actual commandos training start from this week onwards.

~" What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger! "

About 8 more hours before reporting back to camp for another new change made by the OC, which is also something well accepted by the trainees as we will have at least 2 nights out at home. After all, the effect the OC wants is that we will be able to get the best rest out of the deal, and that we will in turn give our 101% for every training for the week!! If things progress well, it will stay like this. . .

~" Tough times don't last, Tough men do! "

Tough trainings is to be expected with the incoming batch of trainees joining us this coming week, but like what the above quote says, it's going to be my motto to move on and make the best out of it. To be able to push to my next level of limit, isn't going to take just myself, but with the help I'm able to draw out just by looking at it every single morning when i wake up, I'll do my best and give my all during trainings so as to enjoy every moment, seconds when I'm out! =) Saw this quote while shopping at J8 during the long weekend, wanted to get it but only left the display set so shall just wait a while longer for the stock to arrive! Meanwhile,

~" It's time for me to say, when we're together or apart, I'm always thinking of you as you have my THOUGHTS, my LOVE, my HEART! "

Shall end off by replying some of the tags before i forget to reply again!!

@ Daniel: Ok ok, will try to link up when i post this up!! Enjoying yourself in MC?!! xD

@ chunhui: haha, what's so sad about it!! I know what you are thinking about, but no worries!! Like what the above quotes says, tough time don't last, so keep going and enjoy the fruits of the success after that=)

@ boey: ohh>.
@ jingting: <3? haha.. =) i agree with feng, cannot vote for yourself, so it's back to 2 - 0 hor? haha!! it's okay la!! actually both pictures looks the same, just mine has better colors!! =DD

@ JUNNN!: Oh yeah!! Sure thing, trainings are going to start serious now, so whenever time allows i'll buzz if you don't =)

@ weehong: hmm, you got good taste!! Smart choice!!

@ ah feng: Yes la!! with that, it's officially 2 votes to none=) Sad huh, only got 2 voters=) but good enough... later the difference too much den... wahahha!! Jiayou on editing k!! It really isn't that hard!! I'm serious!! =DD

Blank.

Couldn't think of a suitable word for the title, so shall just leave it as blank unless i thought of something else to replace it. Maybe have been out of touch with the computers and words that i can't think of words nowadays.

And so, spend my Friday heading back to school for some FC6 food, a relaxing swim at the pool and just nice attending DMIT Annual General Meeting. It was great to see everyone back in school, having the usual fun and laughter during club events. Plus, this time round, everyone was eager to look at my botak head. But i just shaved it few days back, so didn't really like the idea of letting the whole world take a look at it, but somehow or rather i think it's quite obvious la, just didn't manage to see it front view=) So for those who had the benefit to look, be honored!! =)

Throughout the time there, there was this strange mixed feelings surrounding me. This feeling that makes me felt so lost, so... out of place suddenly. Maybe plus i was tired after the swim, i suddenly wanted to be alone and take a good look at my school. Breathing the fresh air, this usual freshness i get every day for 3 years, somehow things just doesn't feel the same anymore. I don't know how to explain it, but i doubt i will have too much time to be back in school again for the next 6 months, today's possibility was really by God's grace that i was able to come back and witness the AGM.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Some pictures, random ones taken from Esplanade roof few weeks back.

Photobucket
Withering Tree at the Roof! the background wasn't ideal, but well. I tried!

Photobucket
One random shot from where i was sat at, probably the only eye-catching thing available from that point of view.

Photobucket
First attempt on macro. . .

Photobucket
Decided to take the overall picture of it as well.

Photobucket
#1 Taken by the yours truly. . .

Photobucket
#2 She tried it as well. . .

Which is better #1, or #2? tag on the board and let me know. A lucky winner will get a dinner treat from me!!! So, what are you waiting for, start voting. Once per person!

Expectations. . . are like goals/aims in life. Either you increase or lower it according to the situation that responds to it. Not sure what i'm talking about here since it's typed without much thought to it! But the general idea is there, i think i won't regret whatever i done so far in life. Never did, Never will <3!!

Out.

Finally ended my 4th week, and 9 more weeks to go!! Training in army isn't that fantastic, neither it's that tiring. Just a more physical type of job serving the nation i supposed?! For about a month or so, getting adjusted to the lifestyle of army went well, plus all the incentives given to us from our unit, isn't that hard to get used to it!?

Today was released earlier for a long weekend due to good performance, the feeling was great nevertheless. At least i know deep in my heart, i put in my 100% for the test and by passing it the 2nd time shows improvement. Though it's was just another week of training and recovery, a slight improvement meant a lot to me cause i need to progressively improve the standards for all the requirements needed!! Just want to share a little experience, that people are really human being affected by emotions after all. As not everyone was given the privilege to enjoy this long weekend given by OC, so while there are excited and happy faces of others going out tonight, there are also unhappy faces as they are going to stuck doing stuff for the new intake for the incoming trainings. All in all, i don't blame them for i know how they feel about not being able to go out early as their performance is not good enough, but what's done is done! Maybe it's just human nature and i shouldn't be bothered about it too much, though it really made me felt damn bad that i could leave early today!! I was just thinking whether if the situation was changed the other way round, will they even think about my feelings or be like the others, just hack care and only think about their own book out, for as long they can get out of there, the rest doesn't matter?!

Hmm, had quite a few tags to reply over the week since i'm not around most of the time, so shall just reply them all here so that you will be able to see it at least, just in case my tag board too small to fit everyone's reply there=)

@ chunhui - ahhh, it's okay!! I'm sure you're just busy doing your stuff, I can understand the pressure and workload for final year students!! Don't worry there's always next time like you said!!

@ JUNNN! - YEAH!! let's catch up real soon!! Don't really have much time off nowadays, like this long weekend is probably my last one before i start serious training already! Maybe Saturdays would be good if i could come out=)

@ zOe - Ohhh, unspoken hero eh?! GAI-senpai? xD just kidding 'kay? don't come find me and whack me!! I'm sorry, just habit to think about it. But anyways your blog is so dusty that it's covered with dust!! Do something about it cause you can't be THAT BUSY!!!

@ jiawei. - UPDATING UPDATING... takes a little time to do it. So little time, yet so much things to do when outside leh!! Every seconds matters so must be patient!! And yeah, today is my book out day, book out, book out!! Long weekends for the win!

@ BoeyO - rare guest?! How's life over there in tekong?! Tiring or not? Hmm, what's expected de la?!!! Don't forget this weekend date with the Brotherhoods!!

@ ah feng - DEAD? won't so easily die de, just no post for the week only. So here's one to feed the blog to last for about one week. Just need some touch up and it should be clean like new!! Don't be too pressure hor, must jiayou jiayou!!!

@ C,orrine - Received your message just when i was about to go out of camp!! Was quite a rushed thingy, so couldn't really respond to you at the moment. But no matter what, i'm still waiting for your good news leh? or you already told me so?!


Next, had a few pictures in my camera, but still in the midst of uploading them so be a little patient about it and enjoy reading my wordy post for now =)

After a drawing a big, huge circle, though it took a while to draw, the circle still came back and joined the dot, back to where it first started. It's a great feeling every second as every second in life counts and is equally important to me! Time is of the essence, so making full use of every moment is probably the only thing i'm able to give now! Patience and understanding is probably the two best word i could think of for at this early morning of my usual wake up time!! I miss everyone outside, but so little time to meet up. I'll still try to meet up whenever time allows!! So get your phones and call the HOTLINE: (+65) 97348588 for appointment now=)